the most beautiful thing happened last night...

lincoln had been asleep for several hours already when josh and i got ready for bed. josh is lying in bed barely alive and lincoln starts to get fidgety. it's time to feed him. so i feed him and then change him into his night-night clothes and a clean diaper. i pick him up to put him in his bassinet and he smiles at me. but at the same time as he is smiling his eyes are slowly closing. i kept telling him "i love you" in the quietest voice and he continued to smile as his eyes were closing. i can't tell you how beautiful it is to see my son fall asleep with a smile on his face. it reassures me that he is happy deep down inside and i haven't made any major parenting mistakes so far. i continued to kiss him and tell him i love him for several minutes before putting him down. he is amazing!

even better...lincoln just woke up (oh yeah 10am) and i asked josh "was that lincoln" after hearing a peep from the bedroom. he said "yeah, that was lincoln, he's laughing"

how awesome is it to go to sleep smiling and wake up laughing!